My memory of that day is very, very clear,
probably because, though it was not the hardest
spanking I ever got (though I think it might
have been my sister Janna's worst memory), it
was the only time I was spanked without having
been guilty as charged. I think in order to
explain fully I have to give the background on
this one.
So, briefly as possible, here is what happened -
for Christmas a few weeks earlier, Janna had
received a set of crayons but they weren't just
ordinary ones, these were fabulous,
glow-in-the-dark fluorescent crayons - she
adored them immediately and I had no sooner
clapped eyes on them than I wanted some of my
own. But they were Janna's, not mine, and hers
to lend or withhold. She quickly got so tired of
my asking to borrow them that eventually she
said 'no'. A couple of times I executed a raid
on her bedroom behind her back and used the
things anyway. She was furious both times, and
eventually hid them in a hiding place I still
don't know where - it was a very good hiding
place, wherever it was.
We had both gone through a phase at about the
same time, though earlier than this story, of
using our coloured pencils, crayons or markers
to decorate the walls with - obviously this was
absolutely forbidden, we had both been spanked
for it in the past, and I don't know what
prompted Janna to do it again - she used her
fabulous crayons to crayon the wall behind the
sofa in the living room. It was a place that
would never normally have been seen, except that
we were having a problem with mice at the time,
Mum had put some traps down, and one afternoon
moved the sofa to check the traps or vacuum the
mouse-evidence or something - and Janna was with
her. I think Janna was just thinking fast on her
feet, when Mum saw the wall, and what she
thought was, "if there's going to be a spanking,
it would be better if it's not mine!" - so being
a consummate actress (actually, all this time
later, I do have a sort of reluctant admiration
for her presence of mind!), instead of instantly
saying, "Briony did it!" she just howled, "But
she used my crayons!" - I heard her from the
next room.
Next, Mum was yelling for me, and I came, and
looked goggle eyed at the wall, and when Mum
asked me point blank if I was responsible, of
course I denied it. The trouble was as all three
of us knew, I would have denied it whether I had
done it or not, I would say the sky was green
and grass was blue to get out of a spanking so
denial didn't help my case and was taken as
proof of guilt rather than the opposite. So I
was hauled off to my room where Mum gave me a
spanking with the hairbrush. I screamed and
shrieked throughout as usual, but after it was
over, it was almost worse, even once the burning
sting had died down the injustice hurt worse.
Mum arrived back in the room a bit later to
begin the comforting reconciliation part of the
ordeal as was usual, but she didn't find me even
remotely calmer than I had been when she had
left me, if anything I was in a worse state. She
sat down on the bed, and let me crawl into her
lap as normal - though confused and hurt I was
even more desperate for cuddles than usual - and
she said,
"Oh come on Bri, it's really not the end of the
world!"
But to me, it was. I carried on bawling
incomprehensibly trying to show my innocence,
into her shoulder, and was utterly inconsolable.
Mum grew still, and after a minute or so of
this, she muttered,
"Oh God. You didn't do it, did you?"
I was so relieved she had got the point that I
managed to stop sobbing for long enough to howl,
"But I don't even know where she hid them!"
I remember her hugging me very tightly for a few
seconds, saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" then
she kind of pushed me away and said, "I'm coming
back but I have to go and deal with your sister
right now!" and she left the room yelling for
Janna.
This is one time I remember Janna, who would
have been seven at the time, being at least as
terrified as I was before a spanking, because as
Mum was dragging her off to her room, I heard
her tell Janna that she was going to get lots
more spanks than I had had, because not only had
she done the original crime, but she had also
lied, and let me get spanked for it. I was still
so upset on my own account that I couldn't
possibly feel sorry for my sister that time, but
it did sound like an extra long spanking that
she got.
By the end of that afternoon, all three of us
were as wrung out as a set of dishcloths, and
later that night was one of the few times I
remember seeing my mother cry. She felt
horribly, terribly guilty. We were supposed to
be in bed, but I wasn't sleepy, and I went and
sat on the stairs and saw my mother crying to my
dad, and my dad trying to make her feel better,
saying things like, "It's OK, Bri will survive!"
- and of course, I did.
Epilogue - it took Janna a couple of years to
tell me freely that she was sorry about that
day, but she did in the end.
One unexpected effect of having been spanked
when innocent, was that I felt I had won a sort
of get-out-of-jail free card as far as being
spanked was concerned, needless to say, if
indeed I had, it wasn't all that long before I
found it had expired! |
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